Maybe I will go there, where I am

Brightness....Darkness.... All the time it seems to me like things are spinning in a revolving realm, never knowing, always knowing, things are so mixed up and yet stay exactly the same. I love the sky, always have, and yet I have noticed myself getting so focused on it that I can not seem to tear my eyes off the site of something that may have more meaning than we all realize. I want to explore, to search out something that I have no idea of yet. I don't know what I am looking for, but hopefully I will find it one day, whatever it may be. I have been in a very different state of mind the past few days I haven't been in for a while and that same one I am still trying to pull myself out of. But of course, things will be fine, as always. I just want to know why all of a sudden I am seeing the world as a total paradox. Maybe, just maybe, that will change, but all in all, it's still beautiful in all it's undoings. I will stop ranting now. Later.